Wednesday, May 30, 2007
tsinelas.
kanina, may nakita akong isang matandang lalaki. to say "taong grasa" or "pulubi/palaboy" is such a cruel way to put it. parang social injustice. but in our everyday conversations we use these words. but now that i'm writing it down, it just feels wrong.
anyways,
sa sidewalk siya naka upo. may malaking plastic bag sa harap niya. naka yuko siya. akala ko nagsosort ng mga gamit niya. tapos nung nadaanan na siya nung kotse namin, nalaman ko na kung anong ginagawa niya.
inaayos niya yung tsinelas niya na natanggal yung pinaka strap. yun naman usually yung madalas masira diba? kakalaro ng patintero para sa mga bata, or sa sobrang gamit para sa mga katulad nila. pinipilit niya i-shoot ulit dun sa pinaka sole ung strap. gamit ang isang barbeque stick. binubutasan niya siguro.
tandang-tanda ko pa yung kulay nung tsinelas eh. black yung sole tapos yellow na strap. di siya yung medyo pasosyal pa na islander. basta yung tsinelas na goma. simpleng-simple. normal na normal.
isang tsinelas na pinipilit pa ayusin para magamit. isang tsinelas na sa ganoong kalagayan, dapat na talagang palitan.
samantalang ako, gumagastos ako ng 895php para sa isang tsinelas. para sa isang havaianas. di pa ako nakuntento sa isa, sa dalawa, sa tatlo, sa apat, sa ...
kalokohan.
nakakaguilty. pero anong magagawa ko? sabi nila, if you have the to money to spend, go. hindi ko naman ninanakaw yung mga perang pinang bili ko nun eh. pero nakakaguilty pa rin.
lalo pa't makakakita ka ng mga ganoong eksena. pero kung di ba ako bumili noon, magkakaroon ba siya ng isang bagong pares ng tsinelas? hindi diba? kung ibibili ko siguro lahat ng taong walang matinong tsinelas dito sa pilipinas, poverty na ako.
hindi yun joke. realidad yun.
mahirap ang bansa natin. pero anong magagawa ko? hindi ako superhero para i-ahon sa kahirapan ang bansa natin. pero kung isang araw, magiging superhero ako, alam ko na ang gagawin ko.
ibibili ko ng tsinelas ang bawat taong wala nito. ang mga walang kakayahang makabili nito.
paano pa ang pagkain? ang tubig? ang damit? ang bahay? ang edukasyon? ang kalusugan?
hindi yun joke. realidad yun.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
wisdumb.
wisdumb is the word i encountered yesterday as i read the newspaper. haha. i find it super cute and i think it fits the mood i have lately. i haven't been gaining anything except for wisdumb. hahaha. cute talaga eh nuh. haha.
ely buendia guested on game na b? yesterday. coolness!
jay of cueshet was an industrial eng. graduate! woah. *gasp* ansama koooooooooo! :))
there's gonna be a book 2 of maging sino ka man. i don't know if i'm going to be happy or sad. ha ha ha. ano na naman kayang pang-iikot ng istorya ang gagawin nila! "jackie and ely forever!" "may pagmamahal kahit sa pamamaalam."
wala na ring let's go at aalog-alog. (jologs kaya me! HAHAHAHA.)
blake didn't win american idol. not that jordin didn't deserve it, i just wanted the new american idol to be different. but not so different like last year's winner taylor. ha ha ha. wouldn't it be cool to have a beatboxer this time around? :) well america decided, so maybe not. hahaha. wala pa akong bet na nananalo sa american idol! booo!
nagdecide na ako between UPLB or UPD. but i didn't want to blog it down muna because i don't want it to be final. hahaha. i can still change my mind. ako na ang i-award ng pinaka malabong babae ever. hahaha.
YM-ing:
kriselle de Guzman: would i choose to play it safe or take the risk? hahaha. i soooo dont know
danna aduna: hahaha
danna aduna: naks ate
danna aduna: pwdeng voiceover sa oth or something hahaha.
danna aduna: pero sa lb, mageexcel ka
danna aduna: sa upd, feeling mo nasa top school ka
danna aduna: medyo nageeven out
Mara Balayan: kriselle anne punzalan de guzman
Mara Balayan: make up your mind!
Mara Balayan: ano ka ba
Mara Balayan: dapat walang panghihinayang
Mara Balayan: magdecide ka ng matino!
Mara Balayan: para kang sira!
WISDUMB.
ely buendia guested on game na b? yesterday. coolness!
jay of cueshet was an industrial eng. graduate! woah. *gasp* ansama koooooooooo! :))
there's gonna be a book 2 of maging sino ka man. i don't know if i'm going to be happy or sad. ha ha ha. ano na naman kayang pang-iikot ng istorya ang gagawin nila! "jackie and ely forever!" "may pagmamahal kahit sa pamamaalam."
wala na ring let's go at aalog-alog. (jologs kaya me! HAHAHAHA.)
blake didn't win american idol. not that jordin didn't deserve it, i just wanted the new american idol to be different. but not so different like last year's winner taylor. ha ha ha. wouldn't it be cool to have a beatboxer this time around? :) well america decided, so maybe not. hahaha. wala pa akong bet na nananalo sa american idol! booo!
nagdecide na ako between UPLB or UPD. but i didn't want to blog it down muna because i don't want it to be final. hahaha. i can still change my mind. ako na ang i-award ng pinaka malabong babae ever. hahaha.
YM-ing:
kriselle de Guzman: would i choose to play it safe or take the risk? hahaha. i soooo dont know
danna aduna: hahaha
danna aduna: naks ate
danna aduna: pwdeng voiceover sa oth or something hahaha.
danna aduna: pero sa lb, mageexcel ka
danna aduna: sa upd, feeling mo nasa top school ka
danna aduna: medyo nageeven out
Mara Balayan: kriselle anne punzalan de guzman
Mara Balayan: make up your mind!
Mara Balayan: ano ka ba
Mara Balayan: dapat walang panghihinayang
Mara Balayan: magdecide ka ng matino!
Mara Balayan: para kang sira!
WISDUMB.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
isang malaking problema.
ang bigat bigat ng problema ko.
di ko alam kung saan ako papasok sa darating na SY 2007-2008.
it's a close close fight between UPLB (BS Econ) and UP DILIMAN (BA Anthro)
my heart is in econ but it has always been my dream to make it to diliman.
wwaaaaahhhhhhh.
bakit ba kasi di ako na admit sa econ ng diliman??? eh di sana tears of joy na ako ngayon.
Lord nung sinabi kung i can wait for three years matikman ang diliman di ko inaakalang days lang pala eh ibibigay niyo na.
now that i can finally have diliman in the palm of why hands i'm leaving behind naman the course that i have grown to love.
wwaaaahhhhhhhhh.
Lord guide me please.
this has got to be one of the biggest decisions i have to make.
uyyyyy ayoko ng ganun.
i'm so torn. as in like grabe super talaga. i did not ever expect na maaadmit ako sa anthro. as in i asked xara to check it out lang sa dept of anthro just for kicks. kasi naman joke lang halos namin ni karen yung anthro eh. di kasi ako inabot ng gwa ng psych. haha.
ano na? sana bukas my kasagutan na ako.
wait ano ba yung anthro? =))
agham pantao.
wow naman. ha ha ha.
di ko alam kung saan ako papasok sa darating na SY 2007-2008.
it's a close close fight between UPLB (BS Econ) and UP DILIMAN (BA Anthro)
my heart is in econ but it has always been my dream to make it to diliman.
wwaaaaahhhhhhh.
bakit ba kasi di ako na admit sa econ ng diliman??? eh di sana tears of joy na ako ngayon.
Lord nung sinabi kung i can wait for three years matikman ang diliman di ko inaakalang days lang pala eh ibibigay niyo na.
now that i can finally have diliman in the palm of why hands i'm leaving behind naman the course that i have grown to love.
wwaaaahhhhhhhhh.
Lord guide me please.
this has got to be one of the biggest decisions i have to make.
uyyyyy ayoko ng ganun.
i'm so torn. as in like grabe super talaga. i did not ever expect na maaadmit ako sa anthro. as in i asked xara to check it out lang sa dept of anthro just for kicks. kasi naman joke lang halos namin ni karen yung anthro eh. di kasi ako inabot ng gwa ng psych. haha.
ano na? sana bukas my kasagutan na ako.
wait ano ba yung anthro? =))
agham pantao.
wow naman. ha ha ha.
Monday, May 21, 2007
argh.
so i cannot open my ym and yahoo mail that i've been using since i was in grade 5 because of some lame pathetic loser who has been hacking my account.
great. just great. so now you've won. now what?
that doesn't make you a winner.
because YOU are still a L-O-S-E-R.
great. just great. so now you've won. now what?
that doesn't make you a winner.
because YOU are still a L-O-S-E-R.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
POSER.
paker ka! sana mabasa mo to'.
kung sina ka mang gumagamit ng ym ko. kumukuha ng pics ko. nagpapanggap na ako.
loooooossssssseeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr ka!
siguro wala kang friend kaya nakiki friend ka sa mga nasa listahan ng ym ko. wala kang kwenta. stalker ka pa! loser! loser! loser! sige lang go. ENVY ME! muwahahaha.
you are ssoooooooooooooooo pathetic. loser.
kung sina ka mang gumagamit ng ym ko. kumukuha ng pics ko. nagpapanggap na ako.
loooooossssssseeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr ka!
siguro wala kang friend kaya nakiki friend ka sa mga nasa listahan ng ym ko. wala kang kwenta. stalker ka pa! loser! loser! loser! sige lang go. ENVY ME! muwahahaha.
you are ssoooooooooooooooo pathetic. loser.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
pinoy big brother.
pbb season two makes me laugh, makes me cry, makes me wonder, makes me think.
scripted talaga yang pbb.
part of me doesn't want to believe that it is indeed scripted. but come to think of it, put a bunch of normal people inside a house without any connection to the outside world and what would you get. BOREDOM kaya! hahaha. maybe not everything is scripted but there has to be something scripted inside there. or else nobody would watch that so called "reality show."
katulad nalang ng balik-bahay whatsoever na yan. before i used to like wendy because i find her pretty(babaw ng reason haha) pero hello na evict na kaya siya. then now she "comes" back to rekindle her love affair with bruce. likewise with kian, para kay gee-ann naman. showbizzzzzzzzzz. haha.
well really some people watch it just for kicks. but to call it "ang drama ng totoong buhay" (or something like that haha) hindi kayaaaa. haha. the people behind those cameras are the ones who add the drama. haha. but still people watch and buy it. why? because pinoys in nature are tsismoso and tsismosa. :P haha. true kaya.
hey don't worry i watch pbb! :) bodie's a cutieeee! :x
scripted talaga yang pbb.
part of me doesn't want to believe that it is indeed scripted. but come to think of it, put a bunch of normal people inside a house without any connection to the outside world and what would you get. BOREDOM kaya! hahaha. maybe not everything is scripted but there has to be something scripted inside there. or else nobody would watch that so called "reality show."
katulad nalang ng balik-bahay whatsoever na yan. before i used to like wendy because i find her pretty(babaw ng reason haha) pero hello na evict na kaya siya. then now she "comes" back to rekindle her love affair with bruce. likewise with kian, para kay gee-ann naman. showbizzzzzzzzzz. haha.
well really some people watch it just for kicks. but to call it "ang drama ng totoong buhay" (or something like that haha) hindi kayaaaa. haha. the people behind those cameras are the ones who add the drama. haha. but still people watch and buy it. why? because pinoys in nature are tsismoso and tsismosa. :P haha. true kaya.
hey don't worry i watch pbb! :) bodie's a cutieeee! :x
i still love you phoenix suns.
their series with the san antonio spur's over. and sadly, their quest for their first NBA title still continues.
as a true-blue phoenix sun's fanatic for the past two or three years, yes i feel sad, but i have nothing to be ashamed of. phoenix suns had proven to the whole world that they are one of the best teams in the NBA right now. they have won games now that they couldn't win two years ago. two seasons ago, when they lost to the san antonio spurs in 5 games (i am blogging this down without research because i remember that series very well, 4-1) i cried with them, for them. but now, the suns have grown, have matured as individual players and as a team and have played their hearts out each time they stepped on the court. and i am so very proud of them.
they fought hard in their series with the spurs. a series very much hyped and filled with a lot of controversies...and blood and bruises. and i am only hoping and praying that the team will carry on the experiences they gained on this series with them through the next season. and hopefully to the 2008 playoff games. and eventually to the nba finals.
as what their coach had told them, KEEP THE FAITH. KEEP WORKING.
i will still continue to believe.
i'll see you next season, steve, amare, shawn, leandro, raja, kurt, boris and all the other boys.
hopefully none of them will leave the team because the team's really playing well right now with extremely talented players. they just fell short this year. i'm sure they'll be back next season pumped and better than ever.
and i will still be watching you next year, keeping my fingers crossed and praying that the team will eventually become the next nba champion. the team deserves it as much as the other championship teams do.
i'll keep praying. :)
Friday, May 18, 2007
friday madness.
it's friiiidaaayyyyyyyy once again meaning i've waster yet another week in this summer vacation by being a BUM. i'm mastering the art of being one. hahaha.
day 5(i think?) of my crazy driving lessons. another day of last minute(errr second) brakes. "clutch halfway sabi eh." "gas gas!" "ok,next gear." "kabig kabig!" "oh tingin muna." "ooopps sorryyyyy." (go figure kung anong lagi kung sinasabi. hahaha.)
and to my dismay tatlong beses akong namatayan ng makina. lintek na half-way clutch yan di ko makuha. haha. sorreeehhhh. i promised myself na automatic ang gusto kung kotse ok? so i wouldn't have to deal with my good buddy mr.clutch na. hahaha. pero that's an improvement na considering na more than 5x ata ako namatayan ng makina kahapon, my muntik na maatrasan na kotse, muntik masabitan, muntik sumemplang... muntik lang naman ehhhh. :)
super enjoy when i'm driving in the highway without jeepneys. that's why i love driving (and zooooming) by daang-hari! 5th gear na ako pare! sabi nga ng mommy ko siya di pa nakakaranas mag 5th gear. eh ako? pshhhh. lovelove it! :)
i despise jeepney drivers, tricycle drivers, mga side car, pedicab, motorcyles and those cars na oovertake-an na nga ako bubusinahan pa ako. sorreeeeeeh po! hahahaha. saludo pa naman ako sa inyong mga jeepney drivers (na hindi kaskasero) pero now hmmmmmmm. haha.
and my phone's broken! argh. i can't txt, can't receive any txt, couldn't call anyone. it's sooooo frustating. what if i'm trapped somewhere?! ibato na yang teleponong yan! good thing my warranty pa sa nokia yung phone ko. mga latest phone models talaga daming mga defects. kung anu-ano kasi nilalagay na features ng phone eh. kulang nalang microwave at ref. haha. ohwell the last time i brought it to the nokia center it took 3 weeks before i was able to get it back. huhu. how long do i have to wait this time? hmf hmf. siguraduhin lang nilang maayos na yun ah. hahaha.
and the long wait of where i'm going to school for the next sem and where i'm going to live(during school days) will finally be over. i guess. goodbye BSBA and BSECO hopes in diliman. huhuhuhu. i guess i keep coming back to los baños. i have to treat it na talaga as my second home coz i'll be living there for the next 3 years na talaga. matitikman din kita diliman. sa college of law. God please. :) that's my last shot of making it to DILIMAN. my ultimate dream school. i'm just waiting for mara to tell me kung pasado rin siya sa dil like bots and tadaaah new housemates! hahaha. crazy. i'll missss you botbot! congrats you finally made it to diliman! God answers our prayes indeed. for me, my answer is to wait. i can handle that. time flies.
so hello UPLB once again. i thought it's goodbye for good na sayo. pero God has a purpose. and thank you God for the results. i'm sure you have better plans for me. :)
things couldn't always go my way. or else perfect na ko. =P
day 5(i think?) of my crazy driving lessons. another day of last minute(errr second) brakes. "clutch halfway sabi eh." "gas gas!" "ok,next gear." "kabig kabig!" "oh tingin muna." "ooopps sorryyyyy." (go figure kung anong lagi kung sinasabi. hahaha.)
and to my dismay tatlong beses akong namatayan ng makina. lintek na half-way clutch yan di ko makuha. haha. sorreeehhhh. i promised myself na automatic ang gusto kung kotse ok? so i wouldn't have to deal with my good buddy mr.clutch na. hahaha. pero that's an improvement na considering na more than 5x ata ako namatayan ng makina kahapon, my muntik na maatrasan na kotse, muntik masabitan, muntik sumemplang... muntik lang naman ehhhh. :)
super enjoy when i'm driving in the highway without jeepneys. that's why i love driving (and zooooming) by daang-hari! 5th gear na ako pare! sabi nga ng mommy ko siya di pa nakakaranas mag 5th gear. eh ako? pshhhh. lovelove it! :)
i despise jeepney drivers, tricycle drivers, mga side car, pedicab, motorcyles and those cars na oovertake-an na nga ako bubusinahan pa ako. sorreeeeeeh po! hahahaha. saludo pa naman ako sa inyong mga jeepney drivers (na hindi kaskasero) pero now hmmmmmmm. haha.
and my phone's broken! argh. i can't txt, can't receive any txt, couldn't call anyone. it's sooooo frustating. what if i'm trapped somewhere?! ibato na yang teleponong yan! good thing my warranty pa sa nokia yung phone ko. mga latest phone models talaga daming mga defects. kung anu-ano kasi nilalagay na features ng phone eh. kulang nalang microwave at ref. haha. ohwell the last time i brought it to the nokia center it took 3 weeks before i was able to get it back. huhu. how long do i have to wait this time? hmf hmf. siguraduhin lang nilang maayos na yun ah. hahaha.
and the long wait of where i'm going to school for the next sem and where i'm going to live(during school days) will finally be over. i guess. goodbye BSBA and BSECO hopes in diliman. huhuhuhu. i guess i keep coming back to los baños. i have to treat it na talaga as my second home coz i'll be living there for the next 3 years na talaga. matitikman din kita diliman. sa college of law. God please. :) that's my last shot of making it to DILIMAN. my ultimate dream school. i'm just waiting for mara to tell me kung pasado rin siya sa dil like bots and tadaaah new housemates! hahaha. crazy. i'll missss you botbot! congrats you finally made it to diliman! God answers our prayes indeed. for me, my answer is to wait. i can handle that. time flies.
so hello UPLB once again. i thought it's goodbye for good na sayo. pero God has a purpose. and thank you God for the results. i'm sure you have better plans for me. :)
things couldn't always go my way. or else perfect na ko. =P
Thursday, May 17, 2007
who would have thought.
i remember summer '05. i remember going to school everyday for diliman access and ccp practices. i remember dancing and then solving math and physics problems day after day. i remember the room, red man, the booklets, the director, the song.
then i remember nikolai. the ideal teacher girls would goooooo crazy at. ideal body, ideal face, ideal brain, ideal teeth, ideal height, just the, you know... ideal guy. (grabe sana HINDI siya mapadpad dito sa blog ko! hahaha.)
i remember the girls going wild and falling head over heels for him. hahahaha. si beth ang no.1 sa listahan. naaalala ko pinag agawan pa namin ni nelia yung piece ng chalk na nalaglag sa ilalim ng mga chair namin nung naging teacher namin siya. tapos si mara or si paula (can't remember exactly) yung nagswitch pa ng rooms just to see him share his passion...rocks. then, nung end na nung review classes, lahat ata kami my picture taken with him. gad. ano nalang kaya ang nasa isip nung lalaking yun pag naaalala niya kami. (or not...)
pathetic. pathetic us. hahahaha.
i had forgotten already na na-add ko pala siya sa friendster ko (pathetic ngaaa). and just a few minutes ago, yung profile niya yung recently updated na naka feature sa home page ng friendster ko.
i then remembered how beautiful nikolai is nga naman.
i browsed his page and looked at his photos. the beach the abs the abs the abs (well you get it.) tapos naka post dun yung highschool grad pic niya. and you would never imagine na someone like that boy in the picture would be that someone like nikolai right now.
people change.
that is why stereo typing should not exist.
geeks can be jocks. cheerleaders can be brainy. a loser can be idolized and praised and adored.
naisip ko lang gawing example si sir nikolai. i hope i will not be arrested or something for writing about him (HAHA.) naisipan ko siyang gawing example because he is real, not scripted.
i wanted the people who are insecure, who are hurting, who are being discriminated to be not afraid to stand up higher. defy the standards and limitations set by our cruel society. do not be afraid to go a little further. to step a bit higher. to say something louder.
pare-pareho lang tayong mga nilalang na ginawa ni God. this issue goes out to almost all that is happening in our world right now. diba? when you think about it, may connection naman talaga eh. i am not planning to start a revolt against whatever. all im saying is that we are entitled to be anyone we want to be. no labels.
ako ,im pretty sure i'm being labeled with something i do not want. hindi ako plastic para hindi maapektuhan. siyempre nakakainis yun. pero heck, move on!
this post is like sooooooooooooo mahaba na. and i think may point na naman ata yung mga sinabi ko. so tatapusin ko na, sir nikolai thank you for the inspiration. for one night you had been to light to one dark soul. :)
para sa lahat. do not be afraid to talk, act, care, love, LIVE the way YOU want. pwedeng ikaw yung loser dati na laging taya pero ngayon big time ka ng business man. pwedeng ikaw yung matalinong valedictorian pero single mom at 19 (oi pero wag ganun masama yun). pwedeng ikaw yung madaldal pero nun na ngayon.
people change.
be not afraid.
defy.
and fly...
then i remember nikolai. the ideal teacher girls would goooooo crazy at. ideal body, ideal face, ideal brain, ideal teeth, ideal height, just the, you know... ideal guy. (grabe sana HINDI siya mapadpad dito sa blog ko! hahaha.)
i remember the girls going wild and falling head over heels for him. hahahaha. si beth ang no.1 sa listahan. naaalala ko pinag agawan pa namin ni nelia yung piece ng chalk na nalaglag sa ilalim ng mga chair namin nung naging teacher namin siya. tapos si mara or si paula (can't remember exactly) yung nagswitch pa ng rooms just to see him share his passion...rocks. then, nung end na nung review classes, lahat ata kami my picture taken with him. gad. ano nalang kaya ang nasa isip nung lalaking yun pag naaalala niya kami. (or not...)
pathetic. pathetic us. hahahaha.
i had forgotten already na na-add ko pala siya sa friendster ko (pathetic ngaaa). and just a few minutes ago, yung profile niya yung recently updated na naka feature sa home page ng friendster ko.
i then remembered how beautiful nikolai is nga naman.
i browsed his page and looked at his photos. the beach the abs the abs the abs (well you get it.) tapos naka post dun yung highschool grad pic niya. and you would never imagine na someone like that boy in the picture would be that someone like nikolai right now.
people change.
that is why stereo typing should not exist.
geeks can be jocks. cheerleaders can be brainy. a loser can be idolized and praised and adored.
naisip ko lang gawing example si sir nikolai. i hope i will not be arrested or something for writing about him (HAHA.) naisipan ko siyang gawing example because he is real, not scripted.
i wanted the people who are insecure, who are hurting, who are being discriminated to be not afraid to stand up higher. defy the standards and limitations set by our cruel society. do not be afraid to go a little further. to step a bit higher. to say something louder.
pare-pareho lang tayong mga nilalang na ginawa ni God. this issue goes out to almost all that is happening in our world right now. diba? when you think about it, may connection naman talaga eh. i am not planning to start a revolt against whatever. all im saying is that we are entitled to be anyone we want to be. no labels.
ako ,im pretty sure i'm being labeled with something i do not want. hindi ako plastic para hindi maapektuhan. siyempre nakakainis yun. pero heck, move on!
this post is like sooooooooooooo mahaba na. and i think may point na naman ata yung mga sinabi ko. so tatapusin ko na, sir nikolai thank you for the inspiration. for one night you had been to light to one dark soul. :)
para sa lahat. do not be afraid to talk, act, care, love, LIVE the way YOU want. pwedeng ikaw yung loser dati na laging taya pero ngayon big time ka ng business man. pwedeng ikaw yung matalinong valedictorian pero single mom at 19 (oi pero wag ganun masama yun). pwedeng ikaw yung madaldal pero nun na ngayon.
people change.
be not afraid.
defy.
and fly...
Monday, May 14, 2007
eleksyon '07
this is the moment.
eleksyon na!
bumoto ng wasto.
magmasid ng todo.
wag magpapatalo.
labanan mga trapo!
camown.. pwede! :))
sana wala ng dugong dumanak pa ngayong araw na toh.
God bless our nation. bless our people.
eleksyon na!
bumoto ng wasto.
magmasid ng todo.
wag magpapatalo.
labanan mga trapo!
camown.. pwede! :))
sana wala ng dugong dumanak pa ngayong araw na toh.
God bless our nation. bless our people.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
ayoko na!
super ngarag. super wasted. super stressed.
kung nasa loob ako ng big brother house ngayon sa ganitong pakiramdam, yan siguro yung paulit-ulit kung sasabihin.
"hay wasted."
i guess i'm not a writer after all.
i just can't understand why i can't blog.
ok, i sounded stupid on that one. haha.
i've been enjoying blog hopping for a really looooooong time now. and every time i try to start something with my own blog, i always, always, always end up with nothing (the exaggeration's really true). it's really frustrating. i have always been in looove with writing. i have always liked words, english, grammar, literature, sentence patterns (that s-tv-do thing. HAHA), novels, essays, something papers.
but somehow, everytime i try to blog i always end up with nothing. *sad face*
maybe being in looove with writing isn't enough. i want/wanted to blog because i want to inspire, to talk about love, life and living it up up up. i want to be that someone who made the difference. i want to be that someone who has sense. i want to be that someone who cares.
i want to be that someone. the super someone.
and it is probably never too late.
i could try.
i could fail.
i could try again.
i could give up.
but i just really wanted to prove to myself that somewhere beneath me is a girl who dreams, who lives, who believes in something real. and it is for me to know what is that 'real.'
i guess i'm not a writer after all.
but i could be the storyteller of the untold story of... "my life."
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