Saturday, April 26, 2008

all signs point to exit.

I could've just walk away.

but I chose to stay.

So I love the thrilling chase. So I love all the drama and the shit. So I love the roller coaster ride. So-rry na. Hahaha.

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Congratulations to the graduating batch of 2008! We will see each other again in the corporate world. HAHAHA. I will surely miss batch 04. There will only be one batch Quality Circle and batch Heuristics. Syempre sila kasi yung batch na may pinakamaraming 04 kaya special mention. Pero sa lahat, congrats pa rin ok? :) I'll miss you guys! Heuri, hindi na natuloy yung APEC part-two natin! :P The mood in LB all week long was very festive. You can see streamers and tarps on every corner of the campus. Ahh basta, pag kaming housemates na ang gumraduate, magkakatarp sa laville. "Congratulations AGM1 girls." HAHAHA.

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Summer classes will be over in barely 2 weeks! YES! Hahaha. I'm trying to sound as optimistic as possible because I want it to hit the beach with my friends na. I want summer classes to be overrr! I'm sooo tired. I have no idea how I answered the 1st long exam in Eng10 without studying. HAHA. Hello, summer!? Summer is all about having fun...and lots and lots of sleep. HAHA. Buti nalang true or false lang. Yes, 50% probability of getting the right answer. =)) Let's puerto ourselves na kasi! Haha. I'll be able to swim next week during the finals of JES! Yay! FINALLY! Resort, resort, resort! Hahaha. Pathetic ng summer eh. Haha.

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I found a very interesting article about blogging in last Wednesday's issue of Philippine Daily Inquirer. I'll try to post the article when I get hold of the paper again when I return back to LB. I'm so amazed how the power of blogging is changing the course of communication nowadays. (Woah, feeling smart! HAHA) It's my ultimate dream to have a famous blog; to have avid readers and all that shit. But sorry, I'm not a celebrity or a relative of a famous celebrity or a very good writer. I don't even have an extra ordinary life to begin with to keep people curious about what's happening in my life. I only have an extraordinary personality. HAHAHA. I still believe in the beauty of letters and keeping a diary. :) Pero as they say, sometimes people need to adapt to its changing environment. WAHT? Hahaha.

I have to finish reading Noli Me Tanghere now.

Catch Yah Latur. :D



Saturday, April 19, 2008

breathe for love tomorrow.

I cannot believe a got a grade of 2 in Soc10 and Eng1. I deserved a grade higher than that! *whine* hahaha. My supposed to be crappy sem last sem turned out to be just fine (errr by fine I mean no failing grade or pasang-awa grade). I got a gwa of 1.89. PFFFT. Thanks to my grades in soc10 and eng1 I couldv'e gotten a higher average. Kung ano pa yung mga medyo kinareer ko, yun pa yung magbibigay ng dos sa akin!? Samantalang sa 2 econ majors ko, wala akong kahit anong effort dun 1.75 pa yung nakuha ko.

Ohwell, let's leave all that behind and breathe for another day! (waaaht!?)

Summer classes officially started and I'm feeling sooo stressed already. I can't believe I spend my entire afternoon everyday in the library! So much for my dvd marathon plans and SA plans. Eng10 is such a pain in the ass. How can we manage to come up with a baby thesis in three weeks? Ho ho ho. On the other hand, I'm enjoying my other class which is PI 100. Finally figured out what that mysterious P and I stood for. It is actually Philippine Institutions 100 because Rizal is basically an institution himself. I like my prof in PI100 but Ma'am April Castro you will still be my favorite History teacher. :)

Hay summer classes! I'm sooo stressed, suppressed in the process. HAHA. A sign of being stressed and studying is pimples and tadaaah I have a cluster of them smack in my forehead. Great!
Hindi talaga pwedeng pagsabayin ang pagmamaganda sa pag-aaral. *wink*

I just wanna be on the beaaaccchhh! Cha, let's do this. Puertooo! Parang dati bora ako ng bora ah. HAHAHA. I want to swim sooo baaad. Any pool would do. I just want to do some laps and practice diving and just swiiim like nobody's watching! (again, waaaht?!) A NEED A SUMMER GETAWAY. Please. :)

But on the positive side of summer classes, UPJES will have trainees by next week! I'm so thrilled. FINALLY! Batch Market Logistics will no longer be the baby batch! *evil laugh* I'm sorry trainees, I'm feeling so stressed and broken these days and you guys will just be the avenue of my emotions! *MUWAHAHA* Ok, I sound like a witch there or something. But seriously, I'm really excited to have trainees! I've been thinking for a long time now how I would conduct a reporting with a trainee and we'll see what happens. But fo shooo I will be a bitch! HAHAHAHA. Sorry nalang kayo, malungkot ang drama ng kriselle anne lately. :D

My heart is still feeling bruised and battered and I don't know how I will ever make it whole again. SOMEDAY! As how David Cook sang it (so amazingly well! exag eh! haha. ) "You will always be a part of meee.. I'm a part of you indefinitely. Boy don't you know you can't escape meee ooh darling cause you'll always be my babyyyy and we'll linger on.. time can't erase a feeling this strong no way you're never gonna shake me ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby..." I almost cried when I heard David Cook's version. Waaa. Last week it was hands down Jason Castro's night, but sorry love, it was really David Cook's time to shine during the Mariah episode. I don't know why a lot of people are not really into American Idol this season. I like this batch. I love how they can play instruments and how their identities are well-defined already. So far, this season is one of my favorites! :D The season I hated the most was when Taylor Hicks won the entire thing. Hello, Taylor Hicks? Where is he now?

Where are you now? Uy sumi-segway.

INSOMNIAC. EMOTIONAL. INSANE. BROKEN. STUCK.

OH CRAP!


Sunday, April 13, 2008

oh my god, my head is spinning.

There are only two absolutes in life.

BEER and FRIENDS.

And usually the best moments in life involve these two.

ENOUGH SAID. *wink*

You guys keep on giving me reasons why you are sti
ll and always will be the best people to be with. 11 is the new 40. Ha ha ha.



Sobrang tawang-tawa ako dun sa orange juice ni jush. HA HA HA. Panalo. Itong HINUMAN na ata ang pinakamaraming quotable quotes na sobrang benta at panalo.

Round two, round two, round two. :P

***
Bakit iisang tao pa rin ang naiisip ko pagka gising at bago matulog?

Here and now.

How i wish you are still part of my here and now. Shit, I SHOULD NOT be like this. Selle, stooop.

***

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

i am not okay.

Hindi ko kayang andiyan ka, habang andito lang ako.
At hindi ko rin kayang andito lang ako, habang andiyan ka lang rin.

Hanggang kailan ako magtatago? Hanggang kailan ako magpapanggap? Hanggang kailan ako aasa?

Ang kulit mo naman kasi puso eh, pwedeng mag ka ng masaktan? Kaya mo yan. Siya na nga nagsabi eh. Kaya mo yan. Sana ganun kadali un. Sana. Sana ganoon kadaling pigilan ang pusong patuloy na tumibok kasi ang sakit sakit na.

Ito na naman ako, umeemote na naman.

Tama na selle. Kaya mo yan.

Kakayanin mo yan.



Tuesday, April 08, 2008

for old times' sake.

Today I realized bowling is not for me. After getting a strike on my first shot, (yes beginner's luck), the gutter would not leave me behind afterwards. HAHA. I was with my highschool friends a while ago, trying to learn how to bowl! Haha. They did a pretty good job convincing me to play since they needed someone to share the socks they bought from the 99peso store. (or was it the one dollar store? HAHA). Mga kuripot! HAHA.

It was nice to hang out with them again. IT HAS BEEN A WHILE since the last time we saw each other. I mean, besides my immediate souljagirls (HAHAHA GAY US!), I haven't seen most of them since last christmas. A lot of things had changed. We just have to accept that and learn to love each other even more. (OK CHEESY!) But, once a Setonian, always a Setionan. Once a gensan, forever a friend. (OK DRAMA!) Absence just makes our hearts grows fonder of each other. *Grouphug*

Pero akalain mong hanggang college, umaatikabo pa rin ang chismis at scandal? HAHAHA. Funny, I guess some things remained unchanged. Hello, grow up people. :) Come enjoy the crazy life of adulthood will you? :) Oh, I miiiissssssss SETON! After all those juicy story-telling (gossiping? not. :P), I felt I'm back in highschool. Oh for old times' sake, I lalalalave to be with you guys. You are still by far, the best people to be with. Although things are no longer the same, there's still that tiny string that bonds all of us together. Beat that pare! EK ulit? =))

I want to visit Seton. I miss seeing green rooftops all over the campus. I miss the catwalk and cws. I miss the trellis too! Here I am again being nostalgic. Tama na nga.

BORA na ba Cha?
After summer classes nalang please?:P Before kayo mag start ng sem. Okay, naririnig ako ni Cha. Hahaha.

The countdown to summer classes 08 begins! Barely a week left for me. Boo. Hello Junior standing! I am soooo old! I plan to work somewhere outside class hours. I need money. (HAHA POVERTY!) I might go to Hong Kong again this June with my cousins. YAY! :) I need extra income besides my allowance. Haha. I want to work at Mcdo. Can I work there for like a month only? :P

I have no idea what my GWA last sem was. I'm pretty sure I did not make to the dean's list as a C.S. But please, a consolation of Honor Roll would be fine fine fine by me. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I really have no idea what my grades in Eng1,Soc10 and Hist1 will be. =S
So far from my predicted grades, only 1 matched! OMIGAD. All the rest were 0.25 lower. Deemmit me for being such a sloth last sem. I promise to redeem myself this summer and next sem. READ SELLE: NO MORE SLOTH MODE.

And funny how God masterfully stroke his plans for me. I was chosen to be the project head for next sem's Kapehan sa CEM, an annual activity of my org. I just joined last sem and already I am a project head. I'm sooo pressured. I was told this early (the activity isn't until September) so that I could really prepare for it. I feel like a newbie trying to learn a new sport. Ahh, the perks of being a project head. I meant the headache. HAHA. This is probably God's way of making me shift my focus to different things; more productive things. This is probably God's way of patting me on the shoulder reminding me that there are other things in life. My shot at that something else will come eventually. But now is probably not the right time. Hindi ko na po ipipilit Lord. As what they say, let go and let God. To be happy is simply to let go of the things that make you unhappy. Amen.

Hopefully I can sleep better tonight.

So to all, Goodnight! :)


Sunday, April 06, 2008

i need this.

Juno asked her dad,

"Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?"

And then her dad answered,

"It's not easy."

***

How do you let go of a thing you have gotten so used to being there? How do you know when to say enough and game's over? How do you pretend everything's going to be okay when in fact it burns the hell out of your insides? How do you know that it is already time to stop?

And then I realized I DON'T KNOW how.

It's okay to hope that things are still going to fall into place even at its slimest chance. It's okay to keep on dreaming that some people don't always leave because some comes back. It's okay to fool yourself thinking that this is just a test and it will pass. It's okay to keep on fighting despite having no chances of winning.

It's okay to be hopeful but there's a difference on being a fool.

I'm usually pessimistic but I don't why I'm acting all optimistic here. It's like hitting dead end and I am on the verge of falling off a cliff. Yet, I still jump. Spot on. Free falling. Defining gravity.

So what do I do?

Nothing. I take it all in.
Nice and Slow.

Sweet torture.

Just let it be.
Just let me be.

I may have lost you.. but you haven't lost me..

Because I am still brave enough to stay and fight this... alone.

It's okay to be alone. I will be okay being alone.

So...

Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?

Yes.

It's not a yes with conviction.

It's a hopeful yes uttered with a scared voice.

Friday, April 04, 2008

blazing hot.

Finally. Finally. Finally!

This sem is over! Done! Finished! (HAHA) HUURRRAAAHHH!!! Hug anyone? >:D<

I can finally say my bittersweet goodbye to such a forgettable sem (in terms of acads. :p).

So hello summer! I might take summer classes. I'm not yet sure but I'm about 80% certain I'm going to spend summer in blazing hot LB. I haven't confirmed my slots yet but I think it's all good in the hood. Haha, whatever Selle.

Currently glued to the television falling madly inloveee with Gossip Girl! I know you love me, xoxo! I'm planning to watch as much tv series and movies I can this summer. I'll be bringing a dvd player with me when I go back to LB during the summer classes. I'll be a student by 8:45 in the morning 'til 12:30 in the afternoon then hello to dvd marathons afterwards. Uhyeeeaah. I have so many series in my head that I'm planning to watch. Hopefully I could finish watching Gossip Girl by tomorrow then maybe I'll try watching The Hills too. My cousin recommended that series to me as I had highly recommended One Tree Hill to her. Then watch season 4 of Grey's Anatomy and Season 1 & 2 of Heroes.

I also want to watch Across the Universe. I've heard sooo much about that movie. Even on Oprah when she interviewed the director and mastermind behind the movie. I was able to catch some clips from the movie and WOW. I am just dying to see the film.

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I want to hit the beach! Errr, well maybe night swimming perhaps? Haha. I want to swimmm! I need exercise. I badly need one. I am so out of shape. Haha. Friends, let's go swimming please? Kahit sa Bellevue or Palms lang. Kahit sa pool lang. PUHLEASE? Haha.

So there. Nothing much to blog about. I'm happy to be homeee! Weee. I can finally fix my room! Haha. Blah blah blah. Nothing much going on with my life so..

Enjoy the summer break everyone! =)

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Happy 19th Birthday ROANNE! =) TARA NA SA CANNES! HAHAHA.

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