Sunday, April 06, 2008
i need this.
Juno asked her dad,
"Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?"
And then her dad answered,
"It's not easy."
***
How do you let go of a thing you have gotten so used to being there? How do you know when to say enough and game's over? How do you pretend everything's going to be okay when in fact it burns the hell out of your insides? How do you know that it is already time to stop?
And then I realized I DON'T KNOW how.
It's okay to hope that things are still going to fall into place even at its slimest chance. It's okay to keep on dreaming that some people don't always leave because some comes back. It's okay to fool yourself thinking that this is just a test and it will pass. It's okay to keep on fighting despite having no chances of winning.
It's okay to be hopeful but there's a difference on being a fool.
I'm usually pessimistic but I don't why I'm acting all optimistic here. It's like hitting dead end and I am on the verge of falling off a cliff. Yet, I still jump. Spot on. Free falling. Defining gravity.
So what do I do?
Nothing. I take it all in.
Nice and Slow.
Sweet torture.
Just let it be.
Just let me be.
I may have lost you.. but you haven't lost me..
Because I am still brave enough to stay and fight this... alone.
It's okay to be alone. I will be okay being alone.
So...
Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?
Yes.
It's not a yes with conviction.
It's a hopeful yes uttered with a scared voice.
"Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?"
And then her dad answered,
"It's not easy."
***
How do you let go of a thing you have gotten so used to being there? How do you know when to say enough and game's over? How do you pretend everything's going to be okay when in fact it burns the hell out of your insides? How do you know that it is already time to stop?
And then I realized I DON'T KNOW how.
It's okay to hope that things are still going to fall into place even at its slimest chance. It's okay to keep on dreaming that some people don't always leave because some comes back. It's okay to fool yourself thinking that this is just a test and it will pass. It's okay to keep on fighting despite having no chances of winning.
It's okay to be hopeful but there's a difference on being a fool.
I'm usually pessimistic but I don't why I'm acting all optimistic here. It's like hitting dead end and I am on the verge of falling off a cliff. Yet, I still jump. Spot on. Free falling. Defining gravity.
So what do I do?
Nothing. I take it all in.
Nice and Slow.
Sweet torture.
Just let it be.
Just let me be.
I may have lost you.. but you haven't lost me..
Because I am still brave enough to stay and fight this... alone.
It's okay to be alone. I will be okay being alone.
So...
Is it possible for two people to stay happy together forever?
Yes.
It's not a yes with conviction.
It's a hopeful yes uttered with a scared voice.
// posted by ♥ selle_anne ♥ @ 1:33 AM 
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