Sunday, October 26, 2008
bella's lullaby.
i am currently listening to bella's lullaby (a twilight soundtrack) which kaleg emailed me a while ako.
and it gives me goosebumps...
why am i missing this wrong person that i shouldn't miss!? (ang labo lang eh, pero non judgmental friends, alam kong alam niyo kung sino yung tinutukoy ko.)
CHARISSE RESUMA! WE NEED TO BOND! HAHA.
Alam ko, matanda na ako. May sarili akong buhay. May sarili akong desisyon. Pero paano ba malalaman ang tama o mali? Or, may tama o mali nga ba? Or nagdedepend nalang yun sa kung ano yung choice na pinili ko?
Nakakapraning kapag napapa isip ako ng mga bagay bagay. This is all too much.
Is it all too soon too?
Dahil diyan, kailangan ko ng kausap.
Kailangan ko ng mahabanggg usapan with anyone who will understand how I feel without judgement.
Bakit dati, I'm so sure. Bakit ngayon, I'm not so sure with a lot of things na.
Is it normal to reach this confused phase? i just really need someone to talk to.. Nakakapraning kasi pag mag-isa ka lang lagi at walang kausap, kung anu-anong mga bagay ang pumapasok sa isip mo. Hahaha! CORE REUNION AGAIN PLEASE? NABITIN AKO EH. :D
THANKS NON JUDGMENTAL FRIENDS. Kilala niyo na kung sino kayo. :)
and it gives me goosebumps...
why am i missing this wrong person that i shouldn't miss!? (ang labo lang eh, pero non judgmental friends, alam kong alam niyo kung sino yung tinutukoy ko.)
CHARISSE RESUMA! WE NEED TO BOND! HAHA.
Alam ko, matanda na ako. May sarili akong buhay. May sarili akong desisyon. Pero paano ba malalaman ang tama o mali? Or, may tama o mali nga ba? Or nagdedepend nalang yun sa kung ano yung choice na pinili ko?
Nakakapraning kapag napapa isip ako ng mga bagay bagay. This is all too much.
Is it all too soon too?
Dahil diyan, kailangan ko ng kausap.
Kailangan ko ng mahabanggg usapan with anyone who will understand how I feel without judgement.
Bakit dati, I'm so sure. Bakit ngayon, I'm not so sure with a lot of things na.
Is it normal to reach this confused phase? i just really need someone to talk to.. Nakakapraning kasi pag mag-isa ka lang lagi at walang kausap, kung anu-anong mga bagay ang pumapasok sa isip mo. Hahaha! CORE REUNION AGAIN PLEASE? NABITIN AKO EH. :D
THANKS NON JUDGMENTAL FRIENDS. Kilala niyo na kung sino kayo. :)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
such a sem that was...
Because 1st sem of my Junior year was the busiest, most haggard yet most fulfilling and unforgettable sem yet...
home is where the heart is.
these people add more and more reasons why
i love UPLB! :)
the shirt says it all.
cemplangan 2008: the first time is always the sweetest time.
muntik pang hindi matuloy yan.
because of cemplangan, I lost a love life.
but as what they said, everything happens for a reason and in exhange of that lost
came sooo many sweetest blessings and events and wonderful people I grew closeR with.
nothing beats the adrenaline of attending cemplangan opening and jes finals in one night.
imagine sustaining your energy for solid 12 hours. (6pm-6am and then someeee)
walang tulugan. walang pahinga.
usong-uso yun.
last-minute getaways are usually the ones that push through.
and studying in UPLB where pansol (the home of many resorts) is just minutes away spells nothing but FUN!
bitchmates love forever.
i fell in love with these two and now nothing can separate us three apart. (weh anu daw?! hahaha)
i love you erick and kalegs!
you made my elbi nights sooo alive and unbelievably loud (with all that tsismis and lait! HAHA)
this was the night that started it all.
ito yung 1st night dun sa 3 nights in a row nating inom
3's the lucky charm nga talaga!:)
delivering under pressure: KAPEHAN SA CEM
what is more awesome than having two major events in ONE week?
being the head of a major activity
and representing your org for ms. cemplangan
such a week that was.
hands down most haggardesssss week of my college life.
i'm sorry for all my bitchyness that week: tantrums, screams, tears,
pressuring other people to work, barking orders here and there.
at the end of day, we were just all relieved to finally have this thing over!
there's always room for improvement and we all know that by heart.
to my KAPEHAN TEAM: thank you much! :)
jes royalty
for 5 straight years, hail to JES for bringing home the title once again!
excuse me, sana may crown! :))
7 years of winning tradition. keep it comming.
4 straight years of being OVER-ALL cemplangan champions!
who says everybody's sleeping at 2:20 am?
good girls...remained good girls. HAHA!
drunk. and gay.
ang malakas magyayang uminom sa umpisa, kadalasang bagsak sa huli.
agm1 girls forever.
with my two of favorite people! :)
KARLA LEGASPI and MIGUEL MALANA!
ending the sem right with my las pinas homies (with erick the birthday boy)
home is where the heart is.these people add more and more reasons why
i love UPLB! :)
the shirt says it all.
cemplangan 2008: the first time is always the sweetest time.muntik pang hindi matuloy yan.
because of cemplangan, I lost a love life.
but as what they said, everything happens for a reason and in exhange of that lost
came sooo many sweetest blessings and events and wonderful people I grew closeR with.
nothing beats the adrenaline of attending cemplangan opening and jes finals in one night.imagine sustaining your energy for solid 12 hours. (6pm-6am and then someeee)
walang tulugan. walang pahinga.
usong-uso yun.
last-minute getaways are usually the ones that push through.and studying in UPLB where pansol (the home of many resorts) is just minutes away spells nothing but FUN!
bitchmates love forever.i fell in love with these two and now nothing can separate us three apart. (weh anu daw?! hahaha)
i love you erick and kalegs!
you made my elbi nights sooo alive and unbelievably loud (with all that tsismis and lait! HAHA)
this was the night that started it all.
ito yung 1st night dun sa 3 nights in a row nating inom
3's the lucky charm nga talaga!:)
delivering under pressure: KAPEHAN SA CEMwhat is more awesome than having two major events in ONE week?
being the head of a major activity
and representing your org for ms. cemplangan
such a week that was.
hands down most haggardesssss week of my college life.
i'm sorry for all my bitchyness that week: tantrums, screams, tears,
pressuring other people to work, barking orders here and there.
at the end of day, we were just all relieved to finally have this thing over!
there's always room for improvement and we all know that by heart.
to my KAPEHAN TEAM: thank you much! :)
the beginning.
this started it all. HAHA.
nagsimula sa building chemistry. :)
KAHIHIYAN! =)) =))
Joshua: Anne, bakit hindi ka pa gumagalaw?
Anne: Wait, bakit ganun yung tugtog? Di ata yan eh.
HAHAH!
the slip-ups and mishaps, the dangerous boots, the unstable platform,
the talent presentation cut short, the drama, the announcement of winners,
the blissful ecstacy the came after.
PRE-PAGEANT. September 5, 2008
this started it all. HAHA.
nagsimula sa building chemistry. :)
KAHIHIYAN! =)) =))Joshua: Anne, bakit hindi ka pa gumagalaw?
Anne: Wait, bakit ganun yung tugtog? Di ata yan eh.
HAHAH!
the slip-ups and mishaps, the dangerous boots, the unstable platform,
the talent presentation cut short, the drama, the announcement of winners,
the blissful ecstacy the came after.
PRE-PAGEANT. September 5, 2008
jes royaltyfor 5 straight years, hail to JES for bringing home the title once again!
excuse me, sana may crown! :))
7 years of winning tradition. keep it comming.4 straight years of being OVER-ALL cemplangan champions!
who says everybody's sleeping at 2:20 am?good girls...remained good girls. HAHA!
drunk. and gay.ang malakas magyayang uminom sa umpisa, kadalasang bagsak sa huli.
agm1 girls forever.
with my two of favorite people! :) KARLA LEGASPI and MIGUEL MALANA!
finding a new love: IC's mocha crem! :)
ending the sem right with my las pinas homies (with erick the birthday boy) 3 more sems to go...
Sunday, September 28, 2008
the final bow.
"Pero I told myself pag naming kami ni pthree, kami na. Di ko na siya pagpapalit. That's final."
And it takes one single text message from him to finally move on.
You can never throw away three years. Well, technically five years because I've known this person since 2003 and we were never really just friends. Pasensya na, kailangan ko lang talagang isulat ito, once and for all. Para sa lahat ng taong concerned, involved, humahanga, nagdadasal, nagtatanong, curious, o simpleng nakikitsismis lang talaga, para sa inyo ito.
IT'S ALL OVER.
And I have this scared feeling that it is really over for good.
Mahirap. Masakit. Pero kailangan kong tanggapin na this is the best thing to do right now. Sabi nga nila, kung puro away nalang ang nangyayari sa isang relationship, it's better to end it nalang. Bakit ko ba kasi pinipilit lagi? Siguro nasanay lang akong andiyan siya. At nasanay lang din lahat ng tao sa paligid namin na andiyan kaming dalawa.
Pag wala siya, hinahanap hanap ko siya. Pag andiyan siya, nababaliwala ko lang siya.
All I could really offer was love, but then again, love is not enough.
I'm writing this with tears flowing down my eyes because, is it really over? I guess so. I believe so. I should learn to think so.
I have nothing but praises for you. Yung statement ko na 'you're the greatest man i know' (syempre bukod kay daddy) still holds true. You are one of the few people I know who has a good heart with the purest intentions. And siguro, if there's any consolation, I feel proud na minsan sa buhay mo, minahal mo ako, ng sobra sobra.
Salamat sa pagiging parte ng isa sa pinaka masayang bahagi ng buhay ko. Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin kung paano magmahal at kung anu ang pagmamahal. Salamat sa lahat ng efforts mo. Minsan pag binabalikan ko, I feel that I'm not worthy of such. You deserve someone much better than I am at siguro napansin na yun ni Lord kaya siya na gumawa ng paraan para matigil na pagtitiis mo sa akin. You deserve all the greatness in this world, and I feel that I am not capable of giving you such. Siguro kung dumating man yung oras na kaya ko na pantayan yung efforts mo sa akin, wala ka na sa tabi ko. At yun na nga yung mangyayari.
Pero seryoso, minahal naman kita ng tunay. Yun nga lang, I always fall short. Sa effort, sa time, sa lahat. I'm sorry. I'm sorry hindi ko mapantayan yung level mo. I'm sorry matigas ang ulo ko, pasaway ako, lagi akong naglilihim, lagi kitang inaaway at tinatarayan. I'm sorry for not being the perfect girlfriend for you. I'm sorry lagi nalang ako nagttry at nagppromise, di ko naman magawa. Sorry sa lahat ng sakit sa ulo na nabigay ko sayo. Pasensya ka na sa tantrums ko. Pero salamat kasi ang tiyaga mo, imagine, nagtagal tayo, eh ang pasaway ko.
Salamat kay Lord pinahiram ka niya sa akin kahit ilang taon lang. I will never get tired of telling stories about 'us'. Alam kong purgang purga na ang mga tao dahil wala naman akong ibang bukambibig kundi ikaw. Siguro yun yung way ko of showing na mahal kita, yun nga lang siyempre hindi mo nakikita at nararamdaman kasi wala ka naman pag pinagmamalaki kita sa iba.
I will love you forever and sana maintindihan ng lahat na hindi ka na mapapalitan sa puso ko. Iba yung impact mo sa akin eh. Yung tipong kahit iba yung makatuluyan ko, makkwento pa rin kita. Yung ganun. Ang cute kaya. Ako natutuwa ako kasi naging ganun yung epekto mo sa akin. Sinabi ko naman sayo dati, I don't know lang kung naaalala mo pa, forever ka na sa heart ko whatever man ang mangyari sa atin. At seryoso ako dun.
***
BOY: Mahal mo pa ba ako?
GIRL: Nung nakita kita kanina, oo. You can't throw away 3 years. It will take time to fall out of love. Pero pag binabasa ko yung mga txts nating nag-aaway dati, di na talaga magwwork out ang relationship natin. Naniniwala akong kung tayo talaga, our paths will cross again someday. God will find a way.
Sana oo nalang yung nireply ko diba. Para natapos na lang. Masyado pa akong madaming sinabi eh.
It's time to finally move on and continue with our separate lives.
And,
I love you, that's it.
And it takes one single text message from him to finally move on.
You can never throw away three years. Well, technically five years because I've known this person since 2003 and we were never really just friends. Pasensya na, kailangan ko lang talagang isulat ito, once and for all. Para sa lahat ng taong concerned, involved, humahanga, nagdadasal, nagtatanong, curious, o simpleng nakikitsismis lang talaga, para sa inyo ito.
IT'S ALL OVER.
And I have this scared feeling that it is really over for good.
Mahirap. Masakit. Pero kailangan kong tanggapin na this is the best thing to do right now. Sabi nga nila, kung puro away nalang ang nangyayari sa isang relationship, it's better to end it nalang. Bakit ko ba kasi pinipilit lagi? Siguro nasanay lang akong andiyan siya. At nasanay lang din lahat ng tao sa paligid namin na andiyan kaming dalawa.
Pag wala siya, hinahanap hanap ko siya. Pag andiyan siya, nababaliwala ko lang siya.
All I could really offer was love, but then again, love is not enough.
I'm writing this with tears flowing down my eyes because, is it really over? I guess so. I believe so. I should learn to think so.
I have nothing but praises for you. Yung statement ko na 'you're the greatest man i know' (syempre bukod kay daddy) still holds true. You are one of the few people I know who has a good heart with the purest intentions. And siguro, if there's any consolation, I feel proud na minsan sa buhay mo, minahal mo ako, ng sobra sobra.
Salamat sa pagiging parte ng isa sa pinaka masayang bahagi ng buhay ko. Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin kung paano magmahal at kung anu ang pagmamahal. Salamat sa lahat ng efforts mo. Minsan pag binabalikan ko, I feel that I'm not worthy of such. You deserve someone much better than I am at siguro napansin na yun ni Lord kaya siya na gumawa ng paraan para matigil na pagtitiis mo sa akin. You deserve all the greatness in this world, and I feel that I am not capable of giving you such. Siguro kung dumating man yung oras na kaya ko na pantayan yung efforts mo sa akin, wala ka na sa tabi ko. At yun na nga yung mangyayari.
Pero seryoso, minahal naman kita ng tunay. Yun nga lang, I always fall short. Sa effort, sa time, sa lahat. I'm sorry. I'm sorry hindi ko mapantayan yung level mo. I'm sorry matigas ang ulo ko, pasaway ako, lagi akong naglilihim, lagi kitang inaaway at tinatarayan. I'm sorry for not being the perfect girlfriend for you. I'm sorry lagi nalang ako nagttry at nagppromise, di ko naman magawa. Sorry sa lahat ng sakit sa ulo na nabigay ko sayo. Pasensya ka na sa tantrums ko. Pero salamat kasi ang tiyaga mo, imagine, nagtagal tayo, eh ang pasaway ko.
Salamat kay Lord pinahiram ka niya sa akin kahit ilang taon lang. I will never get tired of telling stories about 'us'. Alam kong purgang purga na ang mga tao dahil wala naman akong ibang bukambibig kundi ikaw. Siguro yun yung way ko of showing na mahal kita, yun nga lang siyempre hindi mo nakikita at nararamdaman kasi wala ka naman pag pinagmamalaki kita sa iba.
I will love you forever and sana maintindihan ng lahat na hindi ka na mapapalitan sa puso ko. Iba yung impact mo sa akin eh. Yung tipong kahit iba yung makatuluyan ko, makkwento pa rin kita. Yung ganun. Ang cute kaya. Ako natutuwa ako kasi naging ganun yung epekto mo sa akin. Sinabi ko naman sayo dati, I don't know lang kung naaalala mo pa, forever ka na sa heart ko whatever man ang mangyari sa atin. At seryoso ako dun.
***
BOY: Mahal mo pa ba ako?
GIRL: Nung nakita kita kanina, oo. You can't throw away 3 years. It will take time to fall out of love. Pero pag binabasa ko yung mga txts nating nag-aaway dati, di na talaga magwwork out ang relationship natin. Naniniwala akong kung tayo talaga, our paths will cross again someday. God will find a way.
Sana oo nalang yung nireply ko diba. Para natapos na lang. Masyado pa akong madaming sinabi eh.
It's time to finally move on and continue with our separate lives.
And,
I love you, that's it.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Ang gaan gaan ng feeling...
CONGRATULATIONS UPJES FOR BEING THE OVER-ALL CHAMPIONS IN THE RECENTLY CONCLUDED CEMPLANGAN 2008! :)
You truly can't hide your pride if you're a JES member.
Super mamimiss ko ang ating mga sleepless nights, preparations for talent's night, ang pagccheer during basketball games, dinner after ng games, bonding moments, waaaa I miss cemplangan moments already. :(
***
Sembreak is barely 3 weeks away and I'm keeping my fingers crossed na wala sana akong subject na masabit ngayong sem. The pre-fi in eco103 is on thursday na and I have to get a score of 56 to pass the subject. WAAAA!!! It feels like math17 all over again! Hahaha! Lord, please... kahit hindi na ako ma US,CS or HR, wag ko lang talaga ulitin yung subject na un.. super CELEBRATION na!!! Ngayon lang ako kinabahan ng ganito sa isang econ subject, waaa. Malampasan ko lang talaga ito.. GANAP NA AKONG ECON STUDENT! Haha! :)
I'm SUPPEEER excited na mag sembreak. Hopefully, WORRY-FREE sembreak. Hehehe. Can't wait for the JES sem-ender. We're gona beach ourselves! Weeee... diet? Anu un? Hahaha! Tapos na ako sa phase na un. Ok lang magkaroon ng malaking tiyan, matatago sa picture un. Haha!
I superdeeeduper miss CORE! :'( Waaaaa! Let's drews ourselves na please? I HAVE SO MANY STORIES TO SHARE! Sembreak pakibalisan mo na nga.. huhuhu!
I miss Karen Nogaliza, Paula Fae Caguingin, Roanne Aujero, Bea Lasala, Chuchi Resuma, Justinne Young, Febby Gervacio, Marloe de Gracia, and Lawrence Lorico. (Mara wag ka na, magkasama na tayo gabi-gabi. Hahaha!)
Also, my brother's gonna be home na this sembreak! I think (Haha). He's gonna be back home from being away since June! Waaaa! Also, some of my relatives from States are going to be here for a while! Weee. Hectic sembreak! I LOVE! I can't waiiiiiiiiittttt nnaaaaaa!!!
Wag na mag-aral! UYYY. Di pwede un! ACADS MODE DAPAT! READ THAT. DAPAT!
***
Masaya ako lately. Unexpected turn of events. Accidentally inlove? Uy, wag ganun. Hahaha!
I feeeeeeel so high school all over again! I haven't been this kilig in a while and I'm loving the feeling! God knows kung magiging permanent nga siya or for now lang. Basta ang kanta ko.. 'one step at a time, there's no need to rush.' HAHAHAHA! I'm sooo gay! =))
I'm just waiting for the right time to fix some things, to sort everything out. Yung, perfect timing. May perfect moment na eh. Perfect timing nalang! Hahaha! Hopefully, everything will fall into place. *happy sigh* :X
You truly can't hide your pride if you're a JES member.
Super mamimiss ko ang ating mga sleepless nights, preparations for talent's night, ang pagccheer during basketball games, dinner after ng games, bonding moments, waaaa I miss cemplangan moments already. :(
***
Sembreak is barely 3 weeks away and I'm keeping my fingers crossed na wala sana akong subject na masabit ngayong sem. The pre-fi in eco103 is on thursday na and I have to get a score of 56 to pass the subject. WAAAA!!! It feels like math17 all over again! Hahaha! Lord, please... kahit hindi na ako ma US,CS or HR, wag ko lang talaga ulitin yung subject na un.. super CELEBRATION na!!! Ngayon lang ako kinabahan ng ganito sa isang econ subject, waaa. Malampasan ko lang talaga ito.. GANAP NA AKONG ECON STUDENT! Haha! :)
I'm SUPPEEER excited na mag sembreak. Hopefully, WORRY-FREE sembreak. Hehehe. Can't wait for the JES sem-ender. We're gona beach ourselves! Weeee... diet? Anu un? Hahaha! Tapos na ako sa phase na un. Ok lang magkaroon ng malaking tiyan, matatago sa picture un. Haha!
I superdeeeduper miss CORE! :'( Waaaaa! Let's drews ourselves na please? I HAVE SO MANY STORIES TO SHARE! Sembreak pakibalisan mo na nga.. huhuhu!
I miss Karen Nogaliza, Paula Fae Caguingin, Roanne Aujero, Bea Lasala, Chuchi Resuma, Justinne Young, Febby Gervacio, Marloe de Gracia, and Lawrence Lorico. (Mara wag ka na, magkasama na tayo gabi-gabi. Hahaha!)
Also, my brother's gonna be home na this sembreak! I think (Haha). He's gonna be back home from being away since June! Waaaa! Also, some of my relatives from States are going to be here for a while! Weee. Hectic sembreak! I LOVE! I can't waiiiiiiiiittttt nnaaaaaa!!!
Wag na mag-aral! UYYY. Di pwede un! ACADS MODE DAPAT! READ THAT. DAPAT!
***
Masaya ako lately. Unexpected turn of events. Accidentally inlove? Uy, wag ganun. Hahaha!
I feeeeeeel so high school all over again! I haven't been this kilig in a while and I'm loving the feeling! God knows kung magiging permanent nga siya or for now lang. Basta ang kanta ko.. 'one step at a time, there's no need to rush.' HAHAHAHA! I'm sooo gay! =))
I'm just waiting for the right time to fix some things, to sort everything out. Yung, perfect timing. May perfect moment na eh. Perfect timing nalang! Hahaha! Hopefully, everything will fall into place. *happy sigh* :X
Thursday, September 11, 2008
CEMPLANGAN '08
CEMPLANGAN TALENT'S NIGHT NA BUKAS! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Hindi ko na kinakaya ang kabog sa dibdib at nginig sa tuhod ko.
Sabi nga ni Kalegs sa opening prayer nung GA, Lord may we endure the remaining time left and unite as one. Whatever the result may be, we offer it in Your holy name. Amen. We played the game nice and fair. It all boils down to thiiis.
ALAM MO YUNG PRESSURE??? Go for over-all champion parin. SAY UPJES FIGHT!
Sa kakatili ko dahil sa pagkapressure, nawalan tuloy ako ng boses. HAHAHA! Goodluck naman kung paano ako magsasalita bukas dba? Ako na talaga ang ganap na bakla sa husky voice ko! HAHAHA!
Lord, kayo na po ang bahala sa amin. AMEN!
Hindi ko na kinakaya ang kabog sa dibdib at nginig sa tuhod ko.
Sabi nga ni Kalegs sa opening prayer nung GA, Lord may we endure the remaining time left and unite as one. Whatever the result may be, we offer it in Your holy name. Amen. We played the game nice and fair. It all boils down to thiiis.
ALAM MO YUNG PRESSURE??? Go for over-all champion parin. SAY UPJES FIGHT!
Sa kakatili ko dahil sa pagkapressure, nawalan tuloy ako ng boses. HAHAHA! Goodluck naman kung paano ako magsasalita bukas dba? Ako na talaga ang ganap na bakla sa husky voice ko! HAHAHA!
Lord, kayo na po ang bahala sa amin. AMEN!
Monday, September 08, 2008
and then I died.
To put into words how I'm feeling lately, let me just quote what Febby had commented on my friendster page recently...
"Pleaaaseee, don't let this feeling enndddd. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA."
Kasama talaga yung BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA kasi ganung ganun talaga yung feeling ko ngayon eh.
Haha!
Call me cheesy or baduy or so elementary, I DON'T CARE. I just want to write down this feeling because I know it will not last long. KNOWING ME! HAHA! It's a 'one time big time feeling' and I'm so laughing at myself for feeling so giddy and jumpy and shrieky all the time. Blame it to... KALEGS AND ERICK! Hahahaha! I have found love with them! MGA BAKLA KAMING TATLO!
I am 19 years old. I have been judged for 19 years; criticized badly and labled wrongly all my life. I have accepted every word thrown at me SERIOUSLY that's why I get hurt. Kung hindi ako nasasaktan, ibig sabihin noon I'm being fake with my feelings. Goes to show I can be one of the most genuine person you'll ever meet because I don't ever fake my feelings. Say something and I'll react. I always react. I always do.
Ito nalang ang sasabihin ko, mahal ko ang mga taong nakakakilala sakin ng TUNAY. There's nothing wrong with judging a person as long as MAY BASIS PO SANA TAYO SA MGA PINAGSASABI NATIN. Sometimes, yung impact ng mga sinasabi natin sa ibang tao, life long ang effect. And for 19 years I have been so emotional when it comes to what other people think of me.
But just this once...
Walang ibang tao.
Ako lang.
This is my life and nobody EVER has the right to make me feel inferior of myself. Ito ang lagi kung tinuturo sa reporting. And it's about time na i-apply ko naman siguro sa sarili ko yung tinuturo ko.
Now, I'm giving myself this time to just freely...fall. UYYY JOKE LANG! =))
I have every right to feel the feeling that I'm feeling right now.
Without hesitations.
Akala niyo naman kung anong seryosong feeling yun? Hindi ko sasabihin! Secret! Hahahaha! Basta, I'm happy. And I'm happy to be happy. I haven't felt just plain happy until recently. Wala lang, walang reason. Maybe because wala lang. Alam niyo yun? Wala lang talaga kung bakit ako masaya? Walang explanation, walang reason, walang meaning, walang specific reason. Sometimes it's better to be happy about random things than be happy over ONE single thing because what if you lost that ONE thing. Dba?
Find your happiness. Find your happiness in simplest things, like what I'm doing.
And yes, I am setting you free.
"Pleaaaseee, don't let this feeling enndddd. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA."
Kasama talaga yung BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA kasi ganung ganun talaga yung feeling ko ngayon eh.
Haha!
Call me cheesy or baduy or so elementary, I DON'T CARE. I just want to write down this feeling because I know it will not last long. KNOWING ME! HAHA! It's a 'one time big time feeling' and I'm so laughing at myself for feeling so giddy and jumpy and shrieky all the time. Blame it to... KALEGS AND ERICK! Hahahaha! I have found love with them! MGA BAKLA KAMING TATLO!
I am 19 years old. I have been judged for 19 years; criticized badly and labled wrongly all my life. I have accepted every word thrown at me SERIOUSLY that's why I get hurt. Kung hindi ako nasasaktan, ibig sabihin noon I'm being fake with my feelings. Goes to show I can be one of the most genuine person you'll ever meet because I don't ever fake my feelings. Say something and I'll react. I always react. I always do.
Ito nalang ang sasabihin ko, mahal ko ang mga taong nakakakilala sakin ng TUNAY. There's nothing wrong with judging a person as long as MAY BASIS PO SANA TAYO SA MGA PINAGSASABI NATIN. Sometimes, yung impact ng mga sinasabi natin sa ibang tao, life long ang effect. And for 19 years I have been so emotional when it comes to what other people think of me.
But just this once...
Walang ibang tao.
Ako lang.
This is my life and nobody EVER has the right to make me feel inferior of myself. Ito ang lagi kung tinuturo sa reporting. And it's about time na i-apply ko naman siguro sa sarili ko yung tinuturo ko.
Now, I'm giving myself this time to just freely...fall. UYYY JOKE LANG! =))
I have every right to feel the feeling that I'm feeling right now.
Without hesitations.
Akala niyo naman kung anong seryosong feeling yun? Hindi ko sasabihin! Secret! Hahahaha! Basta, I'm happy. And I'm happy to be happy. I haven't felt just plain happy until recently. Wala lang, walang reason. Maybe because wala lang. Alam niyo yun? Wala lang talaga kung bakit ako masaya? Walang explanation, walang reason, walang meaning, walang specific reason. Sometimes it's better to be happy about random things than be happy over ONE single thing because what if you lost that ONE thing. Dba?
Find your happiness. Find your happiness in simplest things, like what I'm doing.
And yes, I am setting you free.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
When I said that august would be hell month, I was exaggerating.
BUT HECK AUGUST REALLY WAS HELL!!!
*deep breath*
So I survived my hell-est-est month so far. I didn't know how I managed to juggle cemplangan, kapehan sa cem, mr. &ms. cemplangan preparations, exams every week, reports, and a lot of things in between! Wheeew! Of course not all the results are favorable, kasi taeng may bagsak akong major. HUHUHU! I'm so...so.. stupid for not studying that exam! HAHAHA! Ayan tuloy may delikado pa ako subject! I'm gonnaaaa die! Hahaha!
Ohwell, still aim high. Go for CS nalang. :)) Pababa ng pababa ang standards ko ah! Hahaha! Sorry, I'm really having a hard time in macro econ. I like micro better. KAYA PA YAN! Kahit tres lang wag lang umulit! Dba dba? :)
Wuuuu, last week of Cemplangan na! UPJES FIGHT!!!!!!!!!! :)
After cemplangan, I promise to resume to super acads mode!
*
I see you
And I'm waiting to make my move
But I'm scared
And I know that you got
Better things to do
I'll touch your hand
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
It's cliche I know
But baby it's the price we pay
To get the things we've wanted
To get the things we've left behind
It's what you've wanted
What you needed
What you've always dreamt about
Don't take another step
And don't breathe another breath
Unless you're coming back to me
BUT HECK AUGUST REALLY WAS HELL!!!
*deep breath*
So I survived my hell-est-est month so far. I didn't know how I managed to juggle cemplangan, kapehan sa cem, mr. &ms. cemplangan preparations, exams every week, reports, and a lot of things in between! Wheeew! Of course not all the results are favorable, kasi taeng may bagsak akong major. HUHUHU! I'm so...so.. stupid for not studying that exam! HAHAHA! Ayan tuloy may delikado pa ako subject! I'm gonnaaaa die! Hahaha!
Ohwell, still aim high. Go for CS nalang. :)) Pababa ng pababa ang standards ko ah! Hahaha! Sorry, I'm really having a hard time in macro econ. I like micro better. KAYA PA YAN! Kahit tres lang wag lang umulit! Dba dba? :)
Wuuuu, last week of Cemplangan na! UPJES FIGHT!!!!!!!!!! :)
After cemplangan, I promise to resume to super acads mode!
*
I see you
And I'm waiting to make my move
But I'm scared
And I know that you got
Better things to do
I'll touch your hand
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
It's cliche I know
But baby it's the price we pay
To get the things we've wanted
To get the things we've left behind
It's what you've wanted
What you needed
What you've always dreamt about
Don't take another step
And don't breathe another breath
Unless you're coming back to me
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